Feeling Desperate, yet HOPEful

Well, I'm really excited that I start school on Monday. I'm really ready to get this show on the road. It's kind of a bittersweet time for me because I still haven't found employment. I'm starting to wonder if I'll be able to find a job that will pay me what I want. I've been pretty optimistic, but my patience is starting to waver a bit.

I really battle within for feeling so foolish. I've wasted so many years because I never took the initiative to improve my skills; to watch the job market to see how readily available my job is. Most Technical Support specialists generally troubleshoot a company's network and it's applications and hardware. Well, that's not what I do. I support applications. The market isn't that ripe for people like myself. Maybe this is a time where I need to feel the pain of what I'm going through to understand that we should all strive to learn new skills. Otherwise, we are at the mercy of the industry. Which translated... means that you constantly are starting over and over again with Entry Level jobs.

I vow to never be stuck in the situation again. I'm almost sure I will have to take a pay cut. Whatever it takes you know.. just as long as I can support my family and put a little back for savings.

So God, please help. Help me to stay calm. Help me to be patient. Help me to understand. I'm not so sure that even if I do understand it, I would want to go through it. I thought I learned this lesson before. Maybe I didn't. I don't know. I just know that I will never stop loving you, and therefore, I will always put my hope in you.

Thank You for loving me back and believing in me.